Oh man, what an amazing Christmas. Praise God, for He is good.
I'm just having a great time here at home with my mom. And I needed to relax.
Yesterday (Christmas eve day) my mom and I had a lot of fun with a chainsaw. We cut up branches from the tree in the back for firewood. Later we watched "It's a Wonderful Life" on tv. This morning we got up late, had Belgian Waffles (dairy and wheat-free of course) for breakfast, and opened presents. I am so excited about a new, SONY DIGITAL CAMERA!! And, a beautiful calendar of modern dance pictures from Lois Greenfield.
This evening we had our Christmas dinner. Potatoes, turnip, BROCCOLI (how I love it!) and burgers!! I wish I had a picture to show you how funny I looked BBQing outside in the rain, in the dark, with a winter jacket on, on Christmas Day. It was delicious. My mom made the best turnip.
Tomorrow we're shopping for a bit, making apple crisp, bathing the dog (her annual Christmas bath!), and going over to Aunt Val's for supper.
Enjoy the rest of your Christmas holiday.
Love,
Lindsay
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Inertia Dance
Hey... lots of stuff to post about today!
I just found out when my dance group is having the major performance of the year. If you're in the Montreal/McGill area, or just feel like coming to visit, the weekend of the show, March 10th and 11th, would be a great time to come!
The theme is "Revolution". I'll be dancing in several pieces in the show as well as choreographing. (If I can get my butt moving. There's a lot of work to do because choreography starts in January. I would like to pick a piece of music sooner rather than later, but I haven't heard anything yet that is exactly what I want: slow and a little eerie, but with vocals... I guess I'll have to keep searching!)
I just found out when my dance group is having the major performance of the year. If you're in the Montreal/McGill area, or just feel like coming to visit, the weekend of the show, March 10th and 11th, would be a great time to come!
The theme is "Revolution". I'll be dancing in several pieces in the show as well as choreographing. (If I can get my butt moving. There's a lot of work to do because choreography starts in January. I would like to pick a piece of music sooner rather than later, but I haven't heard anything yet that is exactly what I want: slow and a little eerie, but with vocals... I guess I'll have to keep searching!)
Regina Spektor
I've added a new list! Please do check out my favourite music... <--on the side bar
Even if none of the others, you must listen to Regina Spektor. You can also check out this amazing video of her song "Fidelity" on YouTube.
Even if none of the others, you must listen to Regina Spektor. You can also check out this amazing video of her song "Fidelity" on YouTube.
Sunday, December 24, 2006
"Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on: you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of — throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were going to be made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself." -CS Lewis (Mere Christianity)
Saturday, December 23, 2006
So close to Christmas!
It is so close to Christmas!
I can't wait! I'm going home (my first home!) tomorrow... I'm excited to see the tree put up with all the lights. Maybe our little dog Keisha will have that cute Christmas bow around her neck :). I'll get to see my mom.
Mmm... I'm dreaming of apple crisp and broccoli... I love Christmas dinner.
I can't wait! I'm going home (my first home!) tomorrow... I'm excited to see the tree put up with all the lights. Maybe our little dog Keisha will have that cute Christmas bow around her neck :). I'll get to see my mom.
Mmm... I'm dreaming of apple crisp and broccoli... I love Christmas dinner.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
End of the Year
It's nearly the end of this year! Read and repost this 'End of the Year Questions'.
1. Overall, have you had a good year?
YES sir! C'etait bon!
2. What has been your biggest achievement?
Learning to love in a way that I never thought possible.
3. Did you take any exams, Pass?
Many many, too many.
4. Have you had your birthday yet?
Yes, I have had 20 of them. This year I had one.
5. Have you been on Holiday? Gone away anywhere?
North Africa! Wooo... not on holiday though. My family doesn't really travel.
6. Where (list and when)?
This past summer, North Africa! May 5th to June 20th. An amazing experience with 32 great people.
7. Have you bought anything expensive?
Food.... food is expensive. Did you notice how expensive food is these days?
8. Have you had a job?
Yes. I worked in a styrofoam factory for almost 2 months. My summer consisted of North Africa, lots of new friends :), a boyfriend, and a LOT of styrofoam.
9. Made any big decisions?
Yes. I went on a missions trip to North Africa. That, and DATING a boy feel like a big decisions! So I would say yes.
10. Lost a friend or loved one?
No, not physically, but I left a lot of people behind.
11. Met anyone amazing?
Yeah. 32 Canadian Christians in North Africa. Also, the whole Cobourg gang: Dan, Titus, Lesley, Naomi, Dalton, Travis, Adam, Rebecca and Jared, Rebecca and Jon... and my new train friend Jen.
12. Made new friends?
Hehe... yeah, see above.
13. Moved house?
Yes! Ish... I moved to Cobourg for the summer AND I moved my stuff from Rez in Montreal to a real live apartment where I'm now living, and loving it!
14. Been to college?
Yes, I'm halfway through my second year.
15. Tried something new?
Yes! Who would say no to that question! I wrote a song. I rode a camel in the Sahara desert. I told someone honestly how I felt about them. I held hands with someone I really liked. :) I REALLY faced my fears head on: driving, singing in public, and being close with a guy.
16. Been more happy or sad?
Happy, of course!!
17. Made any enemies?
I hope not! :P
18. What music will you remember from this year?
Too many to list... John Mayer, both his "Continuum" CD and the Trio's "Try", Jack Johnson, Imogen Heap and Levi Weaver in concert, Gavin DeGraw's "Follow Through", Dallas Green's voice through the speakers at Brutopia.
19. What movies have you seen at the cinema this year?
The Fountain, John Tucker Must Die, Superman, Ricki Bobby (Talledega Nights), World Trade Centre... I can't even remember the rest!
20. What was your best night out?
Best... that's tough. Maybe the night Dan and I walked on the beach. That was awesome. We skipped stones and talked. We stayed out late... we always stayed out late. :)
OHH! More recently that night at Heather's place. We hung out with her crazy neighbours and their Hanukkah party. We shared the gospel with a guy named Greg. Heather and I danced to her hippie electronic music. We listened to a guy with his head stuck through our window rant about conspiracy theories. We stayed up until 4:30. That was so much fun.
21. What was your worst night out?
Hmmm... I don't think I have one. Maybe the last day Dan and I were a couple, together in Cobourg. It was bittersweet. We walked around the campground near his place and talked... but I think we both knew our breakup was coming.
22. Best Day?
It's a toss up: May 23rd... my birthday in North Africa OR August 8th. The day Dan and I started dating.
23. Worst day?
October 10th for sure... my trip back to Montreal after thanksgiving. You'll have to ask me for all the details on that one.
24. Best month?
August. My summer rocked.
25. Worst month?
April.
26. Was summer a 'gooden'?
Yeah, or in the words of a good friend, "It was a gooder."
27. Have you made better friends with anyone?
Yes. Tara, Lucy, Dorrie, Heather, Jozef, Julie... mostly, I made new friends.
28. Lost any friends?
Not that I can think of.
29. How many people have you kissed in the year of 2006?
None.
30. Did you fall in love?
Yes.
31. Did you have your heart broken?
Yes. Really my own fault, but it was broken nonetheless.
32. Made any plans for next year?
Not really. School, dance, work next summer. Nothing's set in stone and it bugs me.
33. How many hair colours have you had?
One. My own! I like my hair colour, thanks.
34. Got pierced?
Nope.
35. Got inked?
No way. I don't really like the look of tattoos.
36. Changed your image?
Hmmm... I don't think so. But for the first time in my life, my image wasn't dictated by my dance abilities or my academic standing.
37. Missed anyone?
YES!! So much. When I got back to Montreal, my mom, my dad, Dan, the Cobourg gang... now I'm at home and missing Tara and Josef and Julie and Rebecca U!
38. Enjoying this survey?
It's getting boring... but what else do I have to do? School is over!
39. Know what you want in the future?
Not yet... waiting on God's guidance. I do know that I want to be an engineer, I want to get married and I want to have kids someday.
40. Regret anything?
Remembering that I had forgotten my keys in Oshawa on the train on the way to Montreal. Not a big deal I guess :P. I don't feel like I made any big mistakes this year!
41. What's the first thing you will do in the new year?
1) Hug all my friends at Winter Conference.
2) Tell my mom how much she means to me.
3) Do my homework.
1. Overall, have you had a good year?
YES sir! C'etait bon!
2. What has been your biggest achievement?
Learning to love in a way that I never thought possible.
3. Did you take any exams, Pass?
Many many, too many.
4. Have you had your birthday yet?
Yes, I have had 20 of them. This year I had one.
5. Have you been on Holiday? Gone away anywhere?
North Africa! Wooo... not on holiday though. My family doesn't really travel.
6. Where (list and when)?
This past summer, North Africa! May 5th to June 20th. An amazing experience with 32 great people.
7. Have you bought anything expensive?
Food.... food is expensive. Did you notice how expensive food is these days?
8. Have you had a job?
Yes. I worked in a styrofoam factory for almost 2 months. My summer consisted of North Africa, lots of new friends :), a boyfriend, and a LOT of styrofoam.
9. Made any big decisions?
Yes. I went on a missions trip to North Africa. That, and DATING a boy feel like a big decisions! So I would say yes.
10. Lost a friend or loved one?
No, not physically, but I left a lot of people behind.
11. Met anyone amazing?
Yeah. 32 Canadian Christians in North Africa. Also, the whole Cobourg gang: Dan, Titus, Lesley, Naomi, Dalton, Travis, Adam, Rebecca and Jared, Rebecca and Jon... and my new train friend Jen.
12. Made new friends?
Hehe... yeah, see above.
13. Moved house?
Yes! Ish... I moved to Cobourg for the summer AND I moved my stuff from Rez in Montreal to a real live apartment where I'm now living, and loving it!
14. Been to college?
Yes, I'm halfway through my second year.
15. Tried something new?
Yes! Who would say no to that question! I wrote a song. I rode a camel in the Sahara desert. I told someone honestly how I felt about them. I held hands with someone I really liked. :) I REALLY faced my fears head on: driving, singing in public, and being close with a guy.
16. Been more happy or sad?
Happy, of course!!
17. Made any enemies?
I hope not! :P
18. What music will you remember from this year?
Too many to list... John Mayer, both his "Continuum" CD and the Trio's "Try", Jack Johnson, Imogen Heap and Levi Weaver in concert, Gavin DeGraw's "Follow Through", Dallas Green's voice through the speakers at Brutopia.
19. What movies have you seen at the cinema this year?
The Fountain, John Tucker Must Die, Superman, Ricki Bobby (Talledega Nights), World Trade Centre... I can't even remember the rest!
20. What was your best night out?
Best... that's tough. Maybe the night Dan and I walked on the beach. That was awesome. We skipped stones and talked. We stayed out late... we always stayed out late. :)
OHH! More recently that night at Heather's place. We hung out with her crazy neighbours and their Hanukkah party. We shared the gospel with a guy named Greg. Heather and I danced to her hippie electronic music. We listened to a guy with his head stuck through our window rant about conspiracy theories. We stayed up until 4:30. That was so much fun.
21. What was your worst night out?
Hmmm... I don't think I have one. Maybe the last day Dan and I were a couple, together in Cobourg. It was bittersweet. We walked around the campground near his place and talked... but I think we both knew our breakup was coming.
22. Best Day?
It's a toss up: May 23rd... my birthday in North Africa OR August 8th. The day Dan and I started dating.
23. Worst day?
October 10th for sure... my trip back to Montreal after thanksgiving. You'll have to ask me for all the details on that one.
24. Best month?
August. My summer rocked.
25. Worst month?
April.
26. Was summer a 'gooden'?
Yeah, or in the words of a good friend, "It was a gooder."
27. Have you made better friends with anyone?
Yes. Tara, Lucy, Dorrie, Heather, Jozef, Julie... mostly, I made new friends.
28. Lost any friends?
Not that I can think of.
29. How many people have you kissed in the year of 2006?
None.
30. Did you fall in love?
Yes.
31. Did you have your heart broken?
Yes. Really my own fault, but it was broken nonetheless.
32. Made any plans for next year?
Not really. School, dance, work next summer. Nothing's set in stone and it bugs me.
33. How many hair colours have you had?
One. My own! I like my hair colour, thanks.
34. Got pierced?
Nope.
35. Got inked?
No way. I don't really like the look of tattoos.
36. Changed your image?
Hmmm... I don't think so. But for the first time in my life, my image wasn't dictated by my dance abilities or my academic standing.
37. Missed anyone?
YES!! So much. When I got back to Montreal, my mom, my dad, Dan, the Cobourg gang... now I'm at home and missing Tara and Josef and Julie and Rebecca U!
38. Enjoying this survey?
It's getting boring... but what else do I have to do? School is over!
39. Know what you want in the future?
Not yet... waiting on God's guidance. I do know that I want to be an engineer, I want to get married and I want to have kids someday.
40. Regret anything?
Remembering that I had forgotten my keys in Oshawa on the train on the way to Montreal. Not a big deal I guess :P. I don't feel like I made any big mistakes this year!
41. What's the first thing you will do in the new year?
1) Hug all my friends at Winter Conference.
2) Tell my mom how much she means to me.
3) Do my homework.
Back at home...
I guess you could say this is my third home. The first being the house I grew up in with my mom, second being Montreal. My life continues growing mostly there, and will for the next two and a half years at least, as I complete my education. And most recently, this strange house in Cobourg has become my third. I lived here just over two months this past summer, and it has become a comfortable place to live.
If I were a reporter (do reporters write about nights out with friends? :P)...
What a great time I had last night! Titus, Naomi, Dalton, Lesley, and I went to Boston Pizza for drinks and dessert. And, a little later, after some persuasion, Dan got out of his pyjamas to join us. It was awesome to catch up with "the Cobourg gang". These people never cease to amaze me. :) Titus is working harder than ever, losing sleep over church and his job, but seems incredibly happy. I think he's really enjoying spending time with his girlfriend, Naomi. They've been dating just over a month I think. Naomi has a new-ish job, and is smiley and sporting the cutest jewelery as always. Dalton is back from Briarcrest... drove all the way from Saskatchewan (what a guy!) to visit with Lesley for a couple days before heading off to see his family. Lesley is the one with amazing patience. Her job demands it, and she's humble about it. :) Dan... what is new with Dan? His trip to Vermont was cancelled, which is why he was able to come with us. So yeah, we caught up... it was so much fun. Here's to more good times in Cobourg. I'll be praying for these guys and gals. Blessings in the new year!
New things are happening in the house, too. My dad recently had an accident at work with a grinder. He cut his leg really badly and had to go in for surgery. He's doing a lot better now, getting around pretty well with crutches. And SO, he's "reevaluating things". I heard those words and my ears perked up. What does that mean for him? Well, disappointing as it is, the first thing he mentionned was that he's not going to leave his Corvette in a garage somewhere. He wants to park it closer to home. It's worth a lot of money, and not just the money, it's in really amazing condition, and is not replaceable. A couple other things... he's sticking to hanging out with just two of his friends, Ruth and an English lady named Kathy. That sounds promising. Thirdly, he has been discussing spiritual stuff with the nurse that has been coming to visit, to check up on him and give him antibiotics. He said she confused him with her idea that Christian spirituality, a walk with God, is different from religiosity. Hopefully that'll get cleared up in his head, and he'll understand the idea of a personal decision. This is a new idea: that the motivation for seemingly "religious activities" (reading the bible, praying) isn't out of obligation, but a relationship of love.
I've talked a lot about the outside stuff... as for me, I'm doing well. I'm enjoying being here. My dad's really laidback. He loves that I've got friends in the area. He's really smart, and I've learned lots from him. And, he put me on his car insurance, so I've been driving! WOOOO!
If you reading this, I'd appreciate prayer. Trips home often mean spiritual lows for me. I want to stay "afloat"! ...Thanks :).
If I were a reporter (do reporters write about nights out with friends? :P)...
What a great time I had last night! Titus, Naomi, Dalton, Lesley, and I went to Boston Pizza for drinks and dessert. And, a little later, after some persuasion, Dan got out of his pyjamas to join us. It was awesome to catch up with "the Cobourg gang". These people never cease to amaze me. :) Titus is working harder than ever, losing sleep over church and his job, but seems incredibly happy. I think he's really enjoying spending time with his girlfriend, Naomi. They've been dating just over a month I think. Naomi has a new-ish job, and is smiley and sporting the cutest jewelery as always. Dalton is back from Briarcrest... drove all the way from Saskatchewan (what a guy!) to visit with Lesley for a couple days before heading off to see his family. Lesley is the one with amazing patience. Her job demands it, and she's humble about it. :) Dan... what is new with Dan? His trip to Vermont was cancelled, which is why he was able to come with us. So yeah, we caught up... it was so much fun. Here's to more good times in Cobourg. I'll be praying for these guys and gals. Blessings in the new year!
New things are happening in the house, too. My dad recently had an accident at work with a grinder. He cut his leg really badly and had to go in for surgery. He's doing a lot better now, getting around pretty well with crutches. And SO, he's "reevaluating things". I heard those words and my ears perked up. What does that mean for him? Well, disappointing as it is, the first thing he mentionned was that he's not going to leave his Corvette in a garage somewhere. He wants to park it closer to home. It's worth a lot of money, and not just the money, it's in really amazing condition, and is not replaceable. A couple other things... he's sticking to hanging out with just two of his friends, Ruth and an English lady named Kathy. That sounds promising. Thirdly, he has been discussing spiritual stuff with the nurse that has been coming to visit, to check up on him and give him antibiotics. He said she confused him with her idea that Christian spirituality, a walk with God, is different from religiosity. Hopefully that'll get cleared up in his head, and he'll understand the idea of a personal decision. This is a new idea: that the motivation for seemingly "religious activities" (reading the bible, praying) isn't out of obligation, but a relationship of love.
I've talked a lot about the outside stuff... as for me, I'm doing well. I'm enjoying being here. My dad's really laidback. He loves that I've got friends in the area. He's really smart, and I've learned lots from him. And, he put me on his car insurance, so I've been driving! WOOOO!
If you reading this, I'd appreciate prayer. Trips home often mean spiritual lows for me. I want to stay "afloat"! ...Thanks :).
Sunday, December 17, 2006
One more.
Today is Sunday. Tomorrow I have my last exam of the semester, in Fundamentals of Electrical Engineering (AKA "FEE" class). Funny thing is, I don't want this semester to end. I loooooove exam time. Yes, call me crazy, but I can't get enough.
Let me explain.
There's always time to spare. I love having a couple days in a row, with not much else to do but study. I like what I'm studying, and I love planning my schedule. I can take a break from the library and go for a walk, listen to music, go to the gym, or talk to my roommates (who don't have exams! :)). I love the independence I have here at school.
No classes! This goes along with what I said about planning my schedule. I am not restricted by anyone else, and can take breaks when I feel sleepy or bored. I don't have to sit in one room for a couple hours listening to someone lecture.
Everyone has time to hang out. The past couple weeks I have had some of the best times watching movies, chatting and having dinner with people. Although we have to be studying most of the time, we can hang out while we work.
Everyone has to work. It's really motivating when other people are working as well.
It's satisfying to study something for so long, and realize that you have learned something important, that you do understand it, and to have your marks reflect that.
There are no assignments or papers due (for engineering students anyway!). I love working on what I want when I want. There's nothing to write (I hate essays!) and nothing to hand in. I can practice whatever kinds of problems I want.
I love exams. It's like a game with math and engineering courses. You have three hours to beat the game, and a number of problems that you have to work through. If you've prepared enough, you can win. If not, try again next time.
:) McGillians, see you all in class next semester, when the fun exam times are over.
Let me explain.
There's always time to spare. I love having a couple days in a row, with not much else to do but study. I like what I'm studying, and I love planning my schedule. I can take a break from the library and go for a walk, listen to music, go to the gym, or talk to my roommates (who don't have exams! :)). I love the independence I have here at school.
No classes! This goes along with what I said about planning my schedule. I am not restricted by anyone else, and can take breaks when I feel sleepy or bored. I don't have to sit in one room for a couple hours listening to someone lecture.
Everyone has time to hang out. The past couple weeks I have had some of the best times watching movies, chatting and having dinner with people. Although we have to be studying most of the time, we can hang out while we work.
Everyone has to work. It's really motivating when other people are working as well.
It's satisfying to study something for so long, and realize that you have learned something important, that you do understand it, and to have your marks reflect that.
There are no assignments or papers due (for engineering students anyway!). I love working on what I want when I want. There's nothing to write (I hate essays!) and nothing to hand in. I can practice whatever kinds of problems I want.
I love exams. It's like a game with math and engineering courses. You have three hours to beat the game, and a number of problems that you have to work through. If you've prepared enough, you can win. If not, try again next time.
:) McGillians, see you all in class next semester, when the fun exam times are over.
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Gotta love the videos
Here's another YouTube video, a clip from the television show "So you think you can dance". If you want to know what modern dance is, this is an awesome example.
This is what I do... except this choreography is way cuter, and more romantic :) than I've ever had the opportunity to perform.
The actual dance starts at 1min 30s.
This is what I do... except this choreography is way cuter, and more romantic :) than I've ever had the opportunity to perform.
The actual dance starts at 1min 30s.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
The CLicking Factor
Have you ever met someone you immediately click with?
This afternoon on the train back to Montreal I was planning to study. I had my notes out, four and a half hours to fill, and the guy beside me was quiet: half asleep, listening to his MP3 player. Things couldn't have been more perfect. But when we stopped in Cobourg, my sleeping friend got off the train and this gorgeous girl got on, and decided she would sit beside me.
I was a little frustrated when she started up a conversation, but soon realized that I was in for a treat. We chatted the entire way to Montreal. I think I looked back at my books twice during the ride, but don't regret not studying. Jen is really... real. She has an incredibly beautiful personality and it just makes her that much more physically attractive. She's intelligent and funny. She's strong, but at the same time open about her weaknesses. She's a genuine person.
She grew up in Montreal, the eldest of 6 girls. Her family now lives in Cobourg. She grew up with loving parents, but wasn't close with her father. She longs for male attention the way I do. She's had her heart broken once or twice. She wants to find a Godly man and get married, but feels she isn't grown up enough yet. She shared with me some of the stuff that she feels still needs working on. This girl is going to make a great wife and mother someday. We talked about school, family, love, broken hearts :'(, and a lot of God stuff. It was just what I needed. She reminded me of God's power, his sovereignty.
I don't know how to describe it, but there's something special about the connection we have. Something that transcends regular relationships. She's someone who I could be really good friends with. I sure hope we stay in touch.
What is that Clicking Factor? Why I am so drawn to this one person who I met on a train? Does the clicking factor change for connections between members of the opposite sex?
This afternoon on the train back to Montreal I was planning to study. I had my notes out, four and a half hours to fill, and the guy beside me was quiet: half asleep, listening to his MP3 player. Things couldn't have been more perfect. But when we stopped in Cobourg, my sleeping friend got off the train and this gorgeous girl got on, and decided she would sit beside me.
I was a little frustrated when she started up a conversation, but soon realized that I was in for a treat. We chatted the entire way to Montreal. I think I looked back at my books twice during the ride, but don't regret not studying. Jen is really... real. She has an incredibly beautiful personality and it just makes her that much more physically attractive. She's intelligent and funny. She's strong, but at the same time open about her weaknesses. She's a genuine person.
She grew up in Montreal, the eldest of 6 girls. Her family now lives in Cobourg. She grew up with loving parents, but wasn't close with her father. She longs for male attention the way I do. She's had her heart broken once or twice. She wants to find a Godly man and get married, but feels she isn't grown up enough yet. She shared with me some of the stuff that she feels still needs working on. This girl is going to make a great wife and mother someday. We talked about school, family, love, broken hearts :'(, and a lot of God stuff. It was just what I needed. She reminded me of God's power, his sovereignty.
I don't know how to describe it, but there's something special about the connection we have. Something that transcends regular relationships. She's someone who I could be really good friends with. I sure hope we stay in touch.
What is that Clicking Factor? Why I am so drawn to this one person who I met on a train? Does the clicking factor change for connections between members of the opposite sex?
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
So I've been at home (my first home = Oshawa) for the past four days. How much work would you guess I've gotten done? Uhh... that'd be next to none. Hey, I'm a poet and didn't even know it!
It's all good though... I've had a chance to catch up with my mom and with old friends, RELAX (so important!), sleep lots and think about life.
I went out for coffee downtown TO. today with an old friend. We danced together for a summer or two and she's a great person to be around. She's so optimistic and just seems to be loving life. I gravitate towards these kinds of people, especially when I need a boost of energy.
Some days I wish I had pursued dance as a career. Dance performance students at Ryerson have it good. My friend is a gorgeous dancer (because of her natural talent I'm sure, but the training at Ryerson is pretty stellar), and gets to produce and perform a lot of her own works on a professional stage. This is her last year, and she doesn't have any set plans for the future, but with the training that she's got, she's surely going to do something magnificent! Go Kiri Go!
I suppose there's still hope for the dancing electrical engineering student...
Anyways... something else I've been thinking about, actually, can't keep my mind off of, is this new movie "The Fountain".
I would recommend it to anyone who loves artsy, thinking movies, but also those with a concrete, structured mind like mine. I can't even really describe to you the plot (it's complicated), but it all revolves around the pursuit of immortality, and the belief that the legendary "Tree of Life" from the Bible still exists. Greed is a huge theme, and it has really made me look at my life at realize that more value needs to be put on relationships. It is an incredible movie. Go see it!
It's all good though... I've had a chance to catch up with my mom and with old friends, RELAX (so important!), sleep lots and think about life.
I went out for coffee downtown TO. today with an old friend. We danced together for a summer or two and she's a great person to be around. She's so optimistic and just seems to be loving life. I gravitate towards these kinds of people, especially when I need a boost of energy.
Some days I wish I had pursued dance as a career. Dance performance students at Ryerson have it good. My friend is a gorgeous dancer (because of her natural talent I'm sure, but the training at Ryerson is pretty stellar), and gets to produce and perform a lot of her own works on a professional stage. This is her last year, and she doesn't have any set plans for the future, but with the training that she's got, she's surely going to do something magnificent! Go Kiri Go!
I suppose there's still hope for the dancing electrical engineering student...
Anyways... something else I've been thinking about, actually, can't keep my mind off of, is this new movie "The Fountain".
I would recommend it to anyone who loves artsy, thinking movies, but also those with a concrete, structured mind like mine. I can't even really describe to you the plot (it's complicated), but it all revolves around the pursuit of immortality, and the belief that the legendary "Tree of Life" from the Bible still exists. Greed is a huge theme, and it has really made me look at my life at realize that more value needs to be put on relationships. It is an incredible movie. Go see it!
Inertia Modern Dance Collective
If you know me well, you know that I destress with dance.
Here's the latest pictures from Inertia Modern Dance Collective. (From our performance in November):
Inertia Pics
Here's the latest pictures from Inertia Modern Dance Collective. (From our performance in November):
Inertia Pics
Monday, December 11, 2006
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Who am I?
I've never really asked myself this question before, but as I look back on my life I realize that something has always defined my identity.
As a child, I was my mother's daughter.
As a young student, I was the brainer, the genius, the math geek. I loved the awards, the marks, the recognition, the adoration. I strived to be perfect. Little did I know, these things don't last. People remember you for a month, or a year, but eventually they forget your status in academics.
As I reached my teens, not only did I want to be known as intelligent, I thought if I was also "the dancer", the BEST, people would remember me. Dance became me. I put all my energy into it.
I wanted to be the best I could be, and so I danced my heart out. Ballet class three or four times a week was the routine. I was living it and loving it. I completed all of my exams and became one of two young ballerinas in Canada to pass the Advanced level that year.
And that is what people knew me for. But just like the academic girl, these things pass away. I'm not the ballerina I used to be. I'm not one of the best students in the school anymore... and when you realize that the things you used to define you no longer make you special, you're devastated.
And these things are well and good; they are still huge parts of my life... I still enjoy math. (You kinda have to to study engineering!) I still revel in a free moment to dance. But I realize that you can't let your life be defined by the things that you do.
Who you are is YOU: the person, the soul, the spirit.
I still struggle with wanting to be defined by something. I want recognition. I want to be known for something special that I do that no one else does. But I've discovered that this is the only identity that I have that lasts: that I am a child of God, that I am filled with the Holy Spirit. Who I am is rooted in that; and I don't want to be anything unless it is good and pleasing to the one who loves me unconditionally: my Jesus.
As a child, I was my mother's daughter.
As a young student, I was the brainer, the genius, the math geek. I loved the awards, the marks, the recognition, the adoration. I strived to be perfect. Little did I know, these things don't last. People remember you for a month, or a year, but eventually they forget your status in academics.
As I reached my teens, not only did I want to be known as intelligent, I thought if I was also "the dancer", the BEST, people would remember me. Dance became me. I put all my energy into it.
I wanted to be the best I could be, and so I danced my heart out. Ballet class three or four times a week was the routine. I was living it and loving it. I completed all of my exams and became one of two young ballerinas in Canada to pass the Advanced level that year.
And that is what people knew me for. But just like the academic girl, these things pass away. I'm not the ballerina I used to be. I'm not one of the best students in the school anymore... and when you realize that the things you used to define you no longer make you special, you're devastated.
And these things are well and good; they are still huge parts of my life... I still enjoy math. (You kinda have to to study engineering!) I still revel in a free moment to dance. But I realize that you can't let your life be defined by the things that you do.
Who you are is YOU: the person, the soul, the spirit.
I still struggle with wanting to be defined by something. I want recognition. I want to be known for something special that I do that no one else does. But I've discovered that this is the only identity that I have that lasts: that I am a child of God, that I am filled with the Holy Spirit. Who I am is rooted in that; and I don't want to be anything unless it is good and pleasing to the one who loves me unconditionally: my Jesus.
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